I loved you, despite the fact that you always disappointed me and made me feel worthless.
I loved you, despite how unfair you can be and how everything I did seemed wrong to you.
I loved you, despite your irrationality and how you never listen to anybody other than yourself.
I loved you, despite your disrespect towards people and how carelessly you hurt others feelings.
I loved you, despite how you took me for granted and how unappreciated you made me feel.
I loved you, despite the fact that you never looked at the good side of things and could never accept my optimism.
I loved you, despite how constantly you put me in moments of frustration, leaving me trying hard as I might to pull myself together.
I loved you, despite how you always expected me to give in to you, but how you always gave me a hard time for the minor wrongs I did.
I loved you, despite the way you’ve never given me the space I needed and the sacrifices I’ve had to make, for your sake.
I loved you, despite how easily you gave up on making me stay but always expected me to fight for us and never leave you.
I loved you, despite your selfishness and how not once have you ever considered my feelings.
I loved you, for being the person that always knew how to keep me smiling and laughing and happy. For being the person who made me fall in love again. For being the person who made me feel safe. For being the person who became my everyday routine.
I loved you, flaws and all.
But I can’t be the only one fighting, and I can’t be the only one stomaching the shitty feelings you never fail to give me.
I love you, and once a person loves they can never just stop having that feeling promptly. So I shall always love you.
But I’m tired of this battle. I can’t do this anymore. And this time, it’s final.
I’m done.
It’s exhausting.
Feeling.
My hormones is almost always having a whale of time playing my emotions up.
It’s exasperating.
Loving.
My heart is almost always generously volunteering to be set up for yet another heart break.
Found my old folded sketch in between pages of my book.
Inking my self cause I just can’t sleep that night.
If you consider giving up on someone, you probably have. If you think you’re in love with someone, you’re probably wrong. All guys say their different which makes them all the same, jerks. I don’t know why girls fall head over heels for guys. Like what’s so great about them? Sure they will hug you, kiss you, tell you you are beautiful, and make you feel all special. But in the end all they do is cause pain. Pain when they don’t call you. Pain when you try to take his phone and he won’t let you. Pain when you ask to go out but he says he is busy.Pain when you fin out theirs someone else. And even if he’s not cheating, in the end he still always hurts you because he “doesn’t have the same feeling anymore”. Bullshit? But that’s what he said. How do you love someone one day and wake up in the morning and not love them anymore.It’s fucked up isn’t it? And what’s hurt the most is how they make it look easy. But whatever, I’m over it. Or at least I’m getting there. Nothing I can do that will change fate. What’s meant to be, will be. When the time is right.
themarcticmonkeys:
“My mouth hasn’t shut up about you since you kissed it. The idea that you may kiss it again stuck in my brain, which hasn’t stopped thinking about you since, well, before any kiss. And now the prospect of those kisses seems to wind me like when you slip on the stairs and one of the steps hits you in the middle of the back. The notion of them continuing for what is traditionally terrifying forever excites me to an unfamiliar degree.”
- Alex Turners love letter to Alexa Chung
(Source: ddancelittleliar)
Unexplainable Sparks in Me
People tell us that this kinda love will fade. That being in love is just a phase. But baby after all time, ain’t nothing change us. All you gotta do is look at me that way. You know what kind of way. And there you go, making me fall in love again. Baby I gotta tell you there’s nothing better than you and me together. Everyday with you is always something new. All I gotta do look at your smiling face. And please don’t take those smiles from me. I want to be the reasons behind your smile. You’re my lover, my best friend , but I can’t believe what’s happening. Cause I’m falling in love with you again. I loved you from the start, now I love you with all my heart. And yeah, I’m falling in love with you again.
My first GIF ever!
“Side by side - Year by year.”
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